Ask and it is given.

Sometimes the Universe delivers what feels like a harsh reality to us in the form of a cold bucket of water splashed on the body already freezing with too much feeling,  too deep a grief, and walking in the flood of denial. 

  I asked for a sign, and there it was. 

I said I wanted three signs that something in my life was over and this picture popped up. I said ok I want two more signs and as I asked, my friend liked my comment on IG and said yes to the question of “could I use it,”  producing the same picture two more times. This means for me that this is a HUGE energetic shift and a karmic release of which I am truly thankful. 

 All this to say that the time of deep healing is upon us. Full Moon in Scorpio, the sign of the zodiac that is represented by true depth of emotional healing is here. The ability to go so deep that you come out the other side. All I can say is thank God. Thank you Divine Source that my time for healing has come and the depths of which I am to heal is deeper than I could have thought to do alone. You are with me. Thy Rod, which holds the energy to direct my prayers into fruition, thy Staff which I lean upon to hold me up through the many ways I have faltered, that comforts me to remember I am not alone. 

This time of Emotional Healing right now is as wide and deep and expansive as the ocean. The Mother of all life, the waters of which we could not live without. The Supreme Mother some call Yemmeya, represented by all mothers. As Mothers day approaches, on the heels of this Super Full Moon, let us heal the mother wound which heals the Earth and the fullness there of, which is you, me and the world. 

We are the fullness of the Earth. We are her inhabitants. We are what is healing. We are the connection we desire, we are the love we have been seeking, we are Now in our Holy’ness, as the return of the Christ, the consciousness of TRUTH is realized in every one. 

So as this thing called covid 19 continues to cause havoc in our lives whether directly or indirectly, let us do the internal work to self-quarantine; to isolate those thoughts, beliefs and behaviors that no longer serve us and heal on the deepest level possible so that we are ready, willing and able to sustain ourselves on the new earth were a deeper connection to the whole will be experienced, where the intention will be felt without need to be expressed, where the need to speak will be less because we will “feel”each other and that feeling will be what guides us into the next moment, and the next. This healing is the purification of the emotional, mental and physical bodies so the the Spiritual Body can take its rightful place in man, at the center of the heart and the center of the head. This connection is the illumination of our Spiritual Light bodies as we become the Light-House of love. Let what needs to die within us die so we can be Spiritually Reborn. 

Affirmation:

In me is all that I need to weather the storm, to walk through the fire and be Reborn.

Celebrating The Divine Mother in honor of "Mothers Day"

Celebrating The Divine Mother 

in honor of 

"Mothers Day"

Mother's Day is just a few days away and I have found myself thinking of my own Mother who is in the Ancestor realm now. She and I didn’t quite see eye to eye when she was alive. I feel like now as the years have passed I have more compassion and a clearer understanding of us, her and me individually and collectively. How we are reflections of one another and how I had projected a lot of my own desires on her and perhaps she on me. What I know is that in many ways I didn’t accept her for who she was. I didn’t appreciate the fact that she was doing the best she could with the tools she had. I didn’t accept or understand her as a person, a woman, a friend. Her life was a celebration of motherhood. She made a choice to give birth, she made a choice to raise me, she made many many choices that supported my growth and spiritual development and instead of celebrating that I judged and blamed her for those choices. 

To heal the Mother wound we must love and to love without conditions. This is a challenge for some people. Often times we get stuck in what we want or wanted to experience. How we want or wanted our mother to “show up” for us. If this is the case there is help. In order to get to that place of Unconditional Love we must first practice appreciation. Appreciation is a key to developing love. When we learn to appreciate what is instead of focusing on what is or was not, more of what is shows up. 

Today I have healed many layers of the Mother Wound. I have learned to Mother myself and nurture myself so that I can fully appreciate my mother and all she did to give me life. This is a critical tool especially for those who do not have children. When we do this we begin to understand the constant 24/7 job it is to care fully for our-self. Children are yet another aspect of our self. Because of this level of self care I can and do uplift, thank and praise my mother for the choices she made. I acknowledge and exalt her and the sacrifices she made and the fact that she did the best she could in raising us. I acknowledge that she may have sacrificed a dream and certainly her freedom so that we could be. As I have learned to let myself off the hook when I am less than understanding or caring for myself, I have learned to let my mother off the hook too. 

The physical mother is in part an aspect of the Divine Mother; The Feminine aspect of God. She is also an aspect of the Moon, the Earth and in some cases the Sun. When we have challenges with our own mother we are in some ways disconnecting from our Divine Mother. Learning to tap into that Maternal energy of the Moon and the Earth we learn to move in rhythms and cycles. We learn the harmony and balance between creativity and rest. We learn to respect ourself, our body as a representation of the Earth and our emotions as an aspect of the Moon. We learn to harness the Fire of our Mother God and transform our heart into a home that accepts all of her Children. Every color, race, religion, ethnic background and gender. We get to BE the change we wish to see. Connecting to our Divine Mother is a MUST, if we want to heal the rift that is happening in the world today. We must connect to the Divine Mother Within our hearts because that is where she lives. She is that aspect that knows only how to love. She knows how to protect her children and she as you see now, can and will destroy the virus of hate, anger or rage that flows in the human heart so that She will rise in her purity and holiness again. Our innate intuitive self is the Mother. She is that part that takes in all children and feeds them from her many breasts. Like the Earth her waters are not segregated except by the dams built by her wayward children. Her arms are the borders that welcome all, they are not closed like the borders made into walls that separate son and daughters of the ONE.

Today I write this in honor of our “Mothers”, our Divine Mother, our Birth Mother and our Mothers by through action. I write this in celebration of lives life, dreams differed and dreams manifest.

In Loving Memory of:

Eliza Wilson Reynolds

Dorothy Reynolds Sandville

Karen Harris

Cecilia DePiola

Lois Gross Robinson

Héléne Anna Hall

Healing the Mother Wound Post Card

Healing the Inner Child

As the time gets nearer for my retreat “Return to your Radiance” Healing the inner child before the holidays, I feel myself really connecting with my inner child. This awareness is showing me the many ways I have yet to grow up. It is bringing clarity to behavioral patterns that are in place that do not support what I say I want. It is showing me the incongruences that keep me from having the life I want. It is showing me how I unconsciously sabotage myself . What does it look like and how to address? 

It shows up as 

• a desire to create more than execute
• A want to get my own way more than make a way
• procrastination
• An increase in eating sugary foods
• lack of focus
• resistance to planning

How it shows up in each of our lives will be different. The point is she/he is there slowing eroding relationships and poisoning our ability to stand fully in our power. How do you change these behaviors? There are three essential keys to changing them and when practiced you will see amazing results. 

1. First Key Awareness

• You can’t become aware if you’re not willing to pay attention to yourself.
• Connect to yourself hold your left hand on your heart and your right hand on the hara-point just below the belly button then ask yourself  “what do I really need, desire and feel?” and then get quiet. 

    2. Second Key Acceptance 

• You have to accept full responsibility for your life and all that has happened, all that is present in order to create a future you and a future unlike the present state of affairs. 
• Holding your right hand on your heart and your left hand onto of it repeat 3 X’s out loud and 3X’s silently “I deeply and unconditionally, Love, appreciate and accept myself exactly as I am.” Sit quietly in that space focusing on your heart. Breathe into your heart and out of the hara-point ,the space just below your belly button but above the sacral chakra. (If you don’t know the chakras please google or request a chakra chart from me)

     3. Third Key Acknowledgement

• You have to acknowledge the behavior in the moment that it is happening or in the very least take an assessment of yourself daily to acknowledge whether your life is moving in the direction you desire or not. 
• Journal nightly and ask yourself the following 10 questions before you lay you down to sleep. 

1. How loving was I to myself today?
2. Did I keep my commitments to myself?
3. Did I follow or deviate from  plans I laid out for myself?
4. Did what I did today bring me closer to my dreams?
5. Have I exhibited this behavior before? 
6. Which of my choices supported what I said I want?
7. Which of my choices not support what I said I want?
8. How did I blame others for my choices today?
9. How did I take full responsibility for my choices?
10. What choices can I make tomorrow or now that will show self Love and are free of blame, shame and attack?

End this process using the second key. Doing this process nightly you will see amazing results!

These first three keys lay the foundation to support you in taking the next most appropriate step in creating an action plan for your desires. It helps clear the slate so that when you begin you are starting from a place of calm, self-love and inner cooperation. You are going to want to create a schedule, regimen, or system that allows for creativity and structure carved out in the way you can fully enjoy both aspect of yourself, the adult you and the inner child you. The inner child isn’t something we want to lock away, destroy or get ride of. They are a valuable and necessary aspect of our being that keeps us young, lively and joyful just because we are alive. Working together with our inner child we can live full abundant lives filled with joy and laughter.

Thank God For Trash Collectors

Today during meditation a lot of emotional garbage came forward to be released from me.

Years of resentment, anger, rage, judgment, criticism, hate and pain. Whew and that’s just what I can remember. I became ready to release and this process took on a physical experience of expulsion. I felt dizzy, nauseous and I wanted to throw up, and I did. During the healing process sometimes things look ugly. It looks like emotional vomit being spit up and spewed out onto the floor of life.

Oh it was ugly. Who knew? Thoughts can make you sick. Yes thoughts are just that powerful they can make you ill physically and emotionally. When they are allowed to grow in us unchecked, running wild in our subconscious they create attitudes and behaviors that feed its continued growth like weeds in a garden. They must be released, in order for your Spirit to be wiped clean. I released all of those painful memories that really are just memories that I had attached a story to and offered a vibration to which created a resonance within me that coordinated to the vibration I offered. This kept me in pain and resentment and anger and hate and kept out love, joy and peace. Today I let it all go.

After cleaning up the mess I created I dropped it into the trash can. The mess that you create can be incomplete business with ex’s or unfinished, unresolved emotional issues with parents, friends, bosses and even ourselves.

Today is trash day on my street and so I put my garbage outside for the garbage man to pick up. I watched as one man put it in the street and another man picked it up and tossed it into the dump truck. I watched as the truck drove away, I watched as the fears, regrets, anger, resentment and pain that I released was removed from my presence, grateful that all the toxic waste within my mind had been carried away from me and I am made whole. Thank God for the garbage collectors.

Who is your garbage collector? How do you throw out your trash? When is pick up day?

Pick up day can be today. Today you can pick up your own trash of emotional wounds, fears, insecurities and throw it out of the door of your being which is your heart. How you throw out your trash is the way you process your emotions in a real and authentic way allowing them to come forth without judgment and choosing to hold no-thing back. It is the Holy Spirit that takes it away and forgiveness and love find its way into the clearing you have made.

Whatever emotional refuse that is still hanging on that is keeping you from experiencing the joy of life let it go today and let the trash collector take it away. Every day can be trash day.

Today’s Affirmation:

I surrender all thoughts, beliefs and perceptions about myself to the Holy Spirit.

I release emotional garbage and let the Holy Spirit take it away.

I let the Spirit of God, the Spirit of good fill the void in me with love.

And So It Is.