When breaking up becomes a break through.

I have been through several relationships in my many years on the planet. None of them resulted in children. I was in discussion with a close friend who said that her child was the byproduct of her relationship with this amazing man and that the child was the very best parts of him and her. It was that soul born form the two that allowed her to see the very best in him despite the differences. It helped her dig deep into her own being and recognize her power, strength and the gift that she was to the relationship.

For those of us who don’t have children with our partners, our persons or our great loves, when we break up, how do we do that? How do we make the relationship greater than the sum of its parts? 

When we leave, and the pain is great, that pain can become our own birthing process. We are giving birth to our new self. This self, like the child, has  great potential to grow and become a game changer in the society of our own life. We get to allow that relationship, no matter how long or how short to grow us into a more whole, more loving, caring and compassionate individual. It’s our choice. We can become bitter, fearful and angry, thereby throwing the baby out with the bath water or we can nurture and feed the growing sense of Self that emerges on the other side of that experience.

Who we are is far greater than the pain, greater than the dissolution of the two that is now just one. We ARE the love we felt, when we opened our hearts for that love. When we keep our hearts open we open up to loving ourselves more. Loving our very fragile existence in this great cosmos, and truly let love bloom such that all who drink of our nectar will be enriched because of it. Our essence then becomes like honey, sweeting all life we come in contact with. Let that honey permeate our existence so that all who taste fall in love with that which they are, and that which you are, at the core of your being. Throw the bath water out, the drama, confusion, anger, judgment, self and otherwise and keep the baby for yourSelf. 

I know it's a weird picture, I created it because I like it!
Use your imagination to visualize what works for you !

Affirmation: Everyone I am in relationship with and too strengthens and empowers me to experience and express more GoOD in my life in every aspect. I celebrate connections.

Let go, Let go, Let go.....and its GONE!

If you’re on this earth at this time chances are you are on a Spiritual path. This spiritual path isn’t a passive path to be on. It is an active path. It is a path of compassion, of love, of forgiveness. It is a path of consciousness. It is a path of conscious action and this comes with every step we take, every breath we take and every thought we think. Today I am consciously choosing, as a Minister of Spiritual Consciousness to address the state of consciousness that I see in some of my constituents in the world of wellness. Wellness starts in the mind and from there it trickles down into our actions, words and experiences. I distribute Young Living Oils® and as a distributer of these oils I am in the business of wellness. I am in the Spirit of Joy, Faith, and Forgiveness which are some of the great essentials oils that Young Living® produces. As such I am openly addressing the arrogance and piety that is sometimes displayed when the mention of doTERRA® oils comes up. 

My friend is a doTERRA® distributer and user. She is a remarkable being of light and a fierce presence in the community of Spiritual Development. She is actively participating in the evolution of spiritual Consciousness in humanity by consciously participating in her spiritual evolution through practices that involve deeply being self aware and accountable for her thoughts, actions and speech and how it effects the fabric of humanity al large. When I see and hear the implications of “what kind of people” are using doTERRA®I am completely baffled. I don’t know what happened between Gary Young and Robert Young. It’s all hearsay to me because I wan’t there. What I do know is that those of us who distribute the oils from the respective companies are well-meaning individuals with a commitment to wellness at the foundation of our desires, and as we share what we love our sharing is done in the spirit of that love. 

We are entering into 2018 and it is time to lay the gauntlet down and work with love and forgiveness as the foundation of our being and not our doing. What I know about the oils I distribute and the person who created it based solely on one specific product, “The Ancient Oils of Scripture.” How I perceive a person who has developed oils based on scriptures in the Bible and using words like Believe, Forgiveness, Acceptance, Faith, is that this person would be a person who believed in the tenants of what he has developed and the basis on which those oils were named after. He must practice Faith, he must practice Forgiveness, and Acceptance. It is time that we, the people who distribute these products also embody to heart those beliefs as well. I say let bygones be bygones and lay down the burdens, cares and resentment, arrogance and snobbery. There is enough in this world for everyone. The whole element of competition is false and self-generated by fear, the fear of not enough. 

Let 2018 be the year that you live this mantra, “I am abundant, I am free, There is enough for you and for me.” Since it all begins in the mind, as Divine Mind and back of all things, as us, there is always enough. I am enough.  You are enough.There is enough for the both of us.

In 2018  I am Inspired to Live My Passion and Build My Dreams, in the field of possibility, that abundance is available to me and to everyone else according to our conscious acceptance of it. I believe in peace and good will towards all is possible and that Consciousness is elevated in every conscious action, conscious thought and conscious word towards that end, and as such we are effecting the very web of creation until we are all realized as connected and directed by the One presence back of all things, that which has created us in His/Her name. In the book “Love without Conditions” Reflections of the Christ Mind written by Paul Ferrini it says “to teach right, make right.” Again, I don’t know what happened. I do know that now they Young Living® and Doterra® both exist and that there is enough room on this sweet earth for both and the matter between the creators isn’t ours to hold like school kids picking sides. It is ours to Love without Conditions and practice Acceptance with Joy and love. 

As we leave behind a very challenging 2017, look into your heart and see what thoughts you are holding against someone? Are you still squabbling over the family rivalry from 1963 or 1816? Are you still holding onto what happened last year or the year before between you and another one? If you are I invite you to lay down your arms. throw in the towel and let bygones be bygones. What we ask of our country we must first ask of ourselves. Let go… Let go… Let go….. and its gone. 

Blessings into the new year my dears! 

Have fun. Laugh a lot. And feel young and free again!

Some of us take adulthood very seriously. In fact, we are dead serious about being serious. Actually in all seriousness, being serious isn’t as serious as it’s made out to be. Being silly and having fun, now that's serious business. Last night I spent time on Church Street toasting marshmallows, and eating s’mores, drinking hot chocolate  and singing carols with the Salvation Army Man. I was about the business of having fun and I made contacts for my business in the process.

In the midst of all the joy, like the Grinch, there was a pinch then a moment that began to turn the tide. While standing in the freezing cold, with Popsicle fingers instead of Popsicle toes (nod to my mom and Micheal Franks) handing out “free pyramid sessions”, that people refused (That’s a whole other article about how we say no and don’t even know what we are saying no to, you know ….lol) ooh where was I …. Oh yea, During that sixty second period of time that felt like a very long while, I came upon a feeling that was like Pinocchio’s nose, it began to grow. For one reason or another I felt that I was missing potential customers and in that moment, felt anxious. Now just as fast as you please that anxiousness was starting to take over like an unwanted virus with an express card with carte blanc. What is a girl to do to get off the Reading Railroad and onto Park Place? I took a breath, dropped into the moment, let go of expectations and just like that I was back in CandyLand.

So this holiday season while still making deadlines, grading papers and stirring the pots and tossing the pans, stay in the moment. When circumstances and even people try and get you to play the game of sadness, madness and joyless-ness,
take a clue from fireman and STOP, DROP and ROLL.

Stop: Take a breath
Drop: Into the moment, into your heart, onto your knees……just drop cause you can’t put the fire out any other way, and…….
Roll: With what is going on, no resistance, releasing expectations and fully accepting what is.

And before you know it you’ll be back in Kansas with the click of your ruby slipper so you can Have fun. Laugh a lot. And feel young and free again!

Developing the Compassionate Heart

Developing a Compassionate Heart

getting ready for the holiday season

As a spiritual mentor and New Thought teacher it is important to always be on the lookout for new awarenesses and inspirations. Very likely none of us has to go far to find it when we practice self awareness and introspection. The home, our family of origin and our intimate relationships are a rich source of fertile soil for the breeding ground of healing, revealing and spiritual insights and awarenesses. The more we grow spiritually the deeper the understanding of certain principles are. Compassion is a spiritual principle. Compassion means to walk upon the earth or within the world in such a way that it does not cause another beings unhappiness. I have always understood this and yet in the back of my mind the meaning has taken on a new perspective. In New Thought we teach that people create their own reality and it isn’t “really” us causing another persons unhappiness. This is a fact. Most often it is the persons perspective of what is being shared or said that creates a feeling of unhappiness. I came to an awareness that I have used this as a spiritual bypass, a walking stick I used as a crutch. I wasn’t consciously aware of it. It was like an extra finger or toe that I could sometimes hide with a sock or explain away. This morning it hit me. As I sat with a tightening in my womb, a physical pain. My sacral Chakra was wound up like a cobra or rattle snake waiting to strike.
Compassion KiMani………Compassion means to walk upon the earth or within the world in such a way that it does not contribute to another beings unhappiness. No sooner than a second did the uncoiling of the cobras head move up like the Kundalini rising, another awareness showed up. I  was in an internal conflict because compassion meant I had to “BE” a certain way and at my deepest heart I am a free spirit. I detest being controlled. Unconsciously it looked like I was losing my freedom to be me. I felt the conflict like a tug of war on my Spirit and more Truth glowed like a red hot coal. I was holding the rope. The me that was the petulant child, the teenager who just wanted to have fun, or the twenty year old who thought she was grown just because she left home and the me that was wearing this beautiful white tunic, who is a spiritual leader, teacher and mentor, tethered to the Soul, tethered to the ONE. And my tears rolled down my face and the dam broke open to a greater capacity to love. A deepening of love for myself, the wounded child who felt the need to protect herself growing up as a sensitive soul in this big ol’ world among others who had lost their sense of sensitivity. A deepening of love for others and an ability to sit with their pain without running away, explaining it away or chasing it away. I opened to a new level of Love. Developing a compassionate heart takes courage and a willingness to reflect, allow and surrender to a deepening of the understandings of life. 
Compassion commands us to grow beyond the comfort zones of our own walls and touch the borders of what true humanity means. Compassion means to walk upon the earth or within the world in such a way that it does not add to another beings unhappiness. So today, develop a compassionate heart, let this writing  supply an anchor to the Truth
“Let each disciple tether is so to the compassionate heart and daily define his mission to be first and foremost centered and that hold purging the old order and building the new…….. Let the tenderness of your Heart increase. Purify the heart and the heart chakra. Expand love! Give love! And see how your love joy with others will establish the foundation of the age of Aquarius……….
-Saint Germain 3-23-96, PoW Vol. 39 No.32, pp. 176-177
The name of I AM THAT I AM, I tether my soul to the compassionate heart and daily define my mission to  be first and foremost centered in that Heart.
I seek and find within myself the fount of everlasting compassion. I am joined by spiritual builders who direct the beginning and ending of civilizations.
In the name os Saint Germain, let the tenderness of my heart increase. Purify my heart and my heart Chakra. Expand my love that I may give love and that my love, joined with the love of others, will establish the foundation of the age of Aquarius” 
©1996-97 Church Universal and Truth Inc.

 As women we hold pain in our wombs and the hurt stacks upon one another waiting to strike out at the least provocation that causes us to grow beyond its borders. I got quiet, I listened to the pain, not the words that it can usually create as a defense mechanism. I listened from the crown of my head where the Truth of awareness sits. I listened with my brow Chakra where the seat of my soul consciousness sits and I felt my heart contract then expand and the light from within showed up. Like a movie reel floating across the screen of my mind softly the words melodically echoed. 

Celebrating The Divine Mother in honor of "Mothers Day"

Celebrating The Divine Mother 

in honor of 

"Mothers Day"

Mother's Day is just a few days away and I have found myself thinking of my own Mother who is in the Ancestor realm now. She and I didn’t quite see eye to eye when she was alive. I feel like now as the years have passed I have more compassion and a clearer understanding of us, her and me individually and collectively. How we are reflections of one another and how I had projected a lot of my own desires on her and perhaps she on me. What I know is that in many ways I didn’t accept her for who she was. I didn’t appreciate the fact that she was doing the best she could with the tools she had. I didn’t accept or understand her as a person, a woman, a friend. Her life was a celebration of motherhood. She made a choice to give birth, she made a choice to raise me, she made many many choices that supported my growth and spiritual development and instead of celebrating that I judged and blamed her for those choices. 

To heal the Mother wound we must love and to love without conditions. This is a challenge for some people. Often times we get stuck in what we want or wanted to experience. How we want or wanted our mother to “show up” for us. If this is the case there is help. In order to get to that place of Unconditional Love we must first practice appreciation. Appreciation is a key to developing love. When we learn to appreciate what is instead of focusing on what is or was not, more of what is shows up. 

Today I have healed many layers of the Mother Wound. I have learned to Mother myself and nurture myself so that I can fully appreciate my mother and all she did to give me life. This is a critical tool especially for those who do not have children. When we do this we begin to understand the constant 24/7 job it is to care fully for our-self. Children are yet another aspect of our self. Because of this level of self care I can and do uplift, thank and praise my mother for the choices she made. I acknowledge and exalt her and the sacrifices she made and the fact that she did the best she could in raising us. I acknowledge that she may have sacrificed a dream and certainly her freedom so that we could be. As I have learned to let myself off the hook when I am less than understanding or caring for myself, I have learned to let my mother off the hook too. 

The physical mother is in part an aspect of the Divine Mother; The Feminine aspect of God. She is also an aspect of the Moon, the Earth and in some cases the Sun. When we have challenges with our own mother we are in some ways disconnecting from our Divine Mother. Learning to tap into that Maternal energy of the Moon and the Earth we learn to move in rhythms and cycles. We learn the harmony and balance between creativity and rest. We learn to respect ourself, our body as a representation of the Earth and our emotions as an aspect of the Moon. We learn to harness the Fire of our Mother God and transform our heart into a home that accepts all of her Children. Every color, race, religion, ethnic background and gender. We get to BE the change we wish to see. Connecting to our Divine Mother is a MUST, if we want to heal the rift that is happening in the world today. We must connect to the Divine Mother Within our hearts because that is where she lives. She is that aspect that knows only how to love. She knows how to protect her children and she as you see now, can and will destroy the virus of hate, anger or rage that flows in the human heart so that She will rise in her purity and holiness again. Our innate intuitive self is the Mother. She is that part that takes in all children and feeds them from her many breasts. Like the Earth her waters are not segregated except by the dams built by her wayward children. Her arms are the borders that welcome all, they are not closed like the borders made into walls that separate son and daughters of the ONE.

Today I write this in honor of our “Mothers”, our Divine Mother, our Birth Mother and our Mothers by through action. I write this in celebration of lives life, dreams differed and dreams manifest.

In Loving Memory of:

Eliza Wilson Reynolds

Dorothy Reynolds Sandville

Karen Harris

Cecilia DePiola

Lois Gross Robinson

Héléne Anna Hall

Healing the Inner Child

As the time gets nearer for my retreat “Return to your Radiance” Healing the inner child before the holidays, I feel myself really connecting with my inner child. This awareness is showing me the many ways I have yet to grow up. It is bringing clarity to behavioral patterns that are in place that do not support what I say I want. It is showing me the incongruences that keep me from having the life I want. It is showing me how I unconsciously sabotage myself . What does it look like and how to address? 

It shows up as 

• a desire to create more than execute
• A want to get my own way more than make a way
• procrastination
• An increase in eating sugary foods
• lack of focus
• resistance to planning

How it shows up in each of our lives will be different. The point is she/he is there slowing eroding relationships and poisoning our ability to stand fully in our power. How do you change these behaviors? There are three essential keys to changing them and when practiced you will see amazing results. 

1. First Key Awareness

• You can’t become aware if you’re not willing to pay attention to yourself.
• Connect to yourself hold your left hand on your heart and your right hand on the hara-point just below the belly button then ask yourself  “what do I really need, desire and feel?” and then get quiet. 

    2. Second Key Acceptance 

• You have to accept full responsibility for your life and all that has happened, all that is present in order to create a future you and a future unlike the present state of affairs. 
• Holding your right hand on your heart and your left hand onto of it repeat 3 X’s out loud and 3X’s silently “I deeply and unconditionally, Love, appreciate and accept myself exactly as I am.” Sit quietly in that space focusing on your heart. Breathe into your heart and out of the hara-point ,the space just below your belly button but above the sacral chakra. (If you don’t know the chakras please google or request a chakra chart from me)

     3. Third Key Acknowledgement

• You have to acknowledge the behavior in the moment that it is happening or in the very least take an assessment of yourself daily to acknowledge whether your life is moving in the direction you desire or not. 
• Journal nightly and ask yourself the following 10 questions before you lay you down to sleep. 

1. How loving was I to myself today?
2. Did I keep my commitments to myself?
3. Did I follow or deviate from  plans I laid out for myself?
4. Did what I did today bring me closer to my dreams?
5. Have I exhibited this behavior before? 
6. Which of my choices supported what I said I want?
7. Which of my choices not support what I said I want?
8. How did I blame others for my choices today?
9. How did I take full responsibility for my choices?
10. What choices can I make tomorrow or now that will show self Love and are free of blame, shame and attack?

End this process using the second key. Doing this process nightly you will see amazing results!

These first three keys lay the foundation to support you in taking the next most appropriate step in creating an action plan for your desires. It helps clear the slate so that when you begin you are starting from a place of calm, self-love and inner cooperation. You are going to want to create a schedule, regimen, or system that allows for creativity and structure carved out in the way you can fully enjoy both aspect of yourself, the adult you and the inner child you. The inner child isn’t something we want to lock away, destroy or get ride of. They are a valuable and necessary aspect of our being that keeps us young, lively and joyful just because we are alive. Working together with our inner child we can live full abundant lives filled with joy and laughter.

Our Light is packed away in the recess of the shadow.

It’s almost 3 am. I’ve been up since midnight. I awoke after having fallen asleep early. As I lay in bed contemplating what to do, trying “not” to wake myself up, I heard the howling of an animal. I thought it might be a squirrel. It sounded like it was having a fight. If you’ve ever heard squirrels fighting the noise is quite shrill. This went on for quite a while. It went on so long that I got up and looked out the window to see what I could see but no animals were in sight. I watched as two people strolled side by side. The looked in the direction of the noise but did not stop. I listened, suspended between a desire to run out and save the poor creature and scared of what I might find. I listened as the howling turned to a whimper and then to silence. It was a fight after all, a fight to the death. In the silence I tried to feel something. I knew, or at least I thought I knew, that I was supposed to feel something. But I felt nothing. So I lay there for the next three hours, reading posts on Facebook, checking emails and making pictures on my phone. Then I remembered that it was Solstice, the celebration of the cycles of life. I remembered that this is the time that we are preparing to go within. The lesson that is a gift was almost lost to me. But in the wee hours of the darkness I saw the light. 

The gift was the knowing that like the animal, fighting for its life by God knows what that was attacking it, we to must go through the fight between our ego and our Soul Self. The struggle is an old paradigm. The old paradigm of the way we were to the new becoming that we will see when the first frost begins to thaw and spring nears. The fight is the ego trying to keep us in the light. Trying to keep us from facing the shadows that come up when we go within. It is a fruitless fight. For as surely as the animal gasped its last breath, we too shall gasp and finally succumb to dealing with our shadow self. It can be a gentle process when there is no fight when we go willingly into the dark. And just as suspended between the desire to help the poor creature and afraid of what I might find, we sit suspended at Solstice between the lessening of the day into the night afraid of what we might find. Like the quote from Marianne Williamson says:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

We wield the power to break every chain that has kept us playing small and frightened of our Magnificence when we go into the dark. We realize that we are the light we’ve been waiting for. 

So as I find myself being drawn to the night, enjoying the beauty that the darkness brings and enjoying the stillness and silence that can only be found in the darkness, My Soul lights up. I AM illuminated. I go into my prayer closet. I go into the shadows that I have with a flashlight filled with Faith, a Candle of Hope and an abundance of Courage to light the way. I Go in Peace to piece together all of who I AM so that I remember I AM WHOLE.  

This Solstice I invite you to go willingly into your quiet place. Take full advantage of the shorter days and begin to get in rhythm with the season. Wind down early. Sit quietly in the dark and contemplate your life. Bring illumination to your behaviors by being willing to see yourself. Really see yourself. See what motivates you. What brings you joy and what breaks your heart. What behaviors are default behaviors cultivated in childhood? Are you passive because you’re afraid of conflict or have a need to be liked? Are you aggressive because you’re afraid of intimacy? Are you bitter because you created a defense against having a good time because it was always followed by something bad? Get to know who you are this winter, then the need to want to be someone else will be released. A sweet opening in your heart emerges and you will find the love you’ve been looking for in all the wrong places. You will find the approval you’ve been seeking outside yourself. You will find the permission you’ve been waiting for to Live the Life of Your Dreams! 

Angels a Gift From Spirit

Each of us has been given an amazing gift by God. We each have a personal angel (several actually) that help us throughout our day. This being of Light does not interfere with our affairs without our permission (unless it's a life and death situation). Our Guardian Angel has been specifically sent by God to aid and assist us whenever we are in need. To begin communicating with your Angel, simply ask. Ask for a sign from your Angel. During meditation, ask for a name or ask to feel the energy of your Angel flowing to you. These steps are the doorways that foster the beginning of  communication. I have asked my Angel to help me with many things, some as simple as to help me find my keys. For our guardian Angel, no task is too big or too small. Although it is not their job to give us the winning lotto numbers, you can ask to be guided to Divine opportunities to create more wealth. It only takes a moment to cultivate a friendship that has been with you your whole like. Delve into the connection of Gods gift!

WOMEN HEALING ZONE

Divine VS Animal Nature

This morning as I spent time in meditation my little furry baby joined me. Her name is Mila short for Miracle or Milagros in Spanish. Well Mila came beside me. Her little furry face rubbing my legs. I picked her up and began my breathing routine. Three breaths in, five breaths out. She jumped out from beside me and I opened my eyes, I let her go and closed them again. Three breaths in, five breaths out. She began to scratch the chair I was in. I picked her up, sat her next to me and again began my breathing. Three breaths in, five breaths out. Down she went again. We did this a few more rounds until I decided to hold her close to me. I held her close to my heart and I asked the Universe what the lesson is that she was teaching me. This was the awareness that came to me.

Our animal nature and our Divine nature exist side by side. The animal nature will always be fidgety and indecisive. Angry for some and aggressive in others. The animal nature will always want and need and perhaps fear. The animal nature plays the game of not enough, too much and mine verses yours. In all of that, “We” have choice. When our animal nature shows up we can either dismiss it or embrace it. When we embrace it with love and compassion we bring our Divine nature to it. When we hold it close to our hearts and cover it with unconditional love instead of judgment  we tame the beast and allow both to exist. We stop the separation of God and man and Become ONE SUBLIME ENERGY MANIFEST IN FLESH! We merge the two and our life becomes ONE with all that is. We transform the mundane moments into manifest Miracles. We no longer separate ourselves from the other. We no longer separate our Spirit from the flesh ; We Transcend the Whole body and Soul into Light and Love. We Love, not war. We make Peace, not anger. We make the ideal of Freedom and Justice for all a reality, not just an ideal. 

So the next time your animal nature shows up in your lap, try embracing it as it is without judgement. Hold it in your arms and see what it is really asking for. Do you need more attention? Do you need more love? Do you need to be heard, seen or recognized? Then offer it to yourself. Offer yourself unconditional love in the moment and watch the Miracle of Transformation become an Ordinary experience, because it is. 

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Of Wonderment & AWE!

Every day alive is an opportunity to experience a life of wonderment and awe. Yesterday I was complaining that the time I had set aside was now taken to do other things. I let it go and went with the flow. I allowed myself to be ok with what was instead of being annoyed with what wasn't. As I went along with the flow other signs started to show up. I had in my possession a cell phone, an iPad and a computer. All showed signs of low battery. I took this as a message to unplug from the vortex and let myself relax. I gave myself permission to enjoy the day free from the constraints of a schedule. The next day I was gifted with the time I had complained that I didn't have the day before. It showed up by way of a canceled flight. This, what looked like more delays, became an opportunity to do all that I hadn't done the day before, and to write this blog, which is a blessed bonus.

What lesson does this hold for me that might also be a gift to you? The message was that whatever shows up is a gift waiting to be unwrapped the moment we unwrap ourselves out of the bondage of illusion. The illusion of things appearing as they seem. What appears as a problem then becomes a gift. What appears as a challenge then become an opportunity. What appears as a fear then become fodder for the Strength of Faith.

My lesson; Everything is ALWAYS ALL RIGHT! I AM IN THE DIVINE FLOW OF GoOD! Every step is accounted for and leads me beside the still waters of Perfect Trust and Perfect Peace I AM THAT I AM.

Affirmation:

By Divine Decree 

and in the Name of 

My Great GodPressence within and Above me Back of ALL THINGS

I AM Divinely Guided and Directed

My Path is Cleared 

My Way is Straight

My Choices Lead me to the Highest Pass

I AM Faith Filled I AM FREE


http://kimanidivine.blogspot.com/2015/06/of-wonderment-awe.html

Ah Ha moment of the day!

Ah Ha moment of the day!

I keep waiting for this moment when I will "BE" enlightened! I keep waiting for something to “HAPPEN” that will let me know that I have arrived. I board the daily journey of my life in route to enlightenment not really living just single mindedly focused on my destination. I haven’t “really” been enjoying the journey. I have had moments on the journey of joy yet focused on attaining a goal I thought outside of myself and alas I have arrived at the moment! I saw it. It was indescribable, profound and wordless and now I go about my day today doing the same things I did yesterday, slightly different. I have had a chop wood carry water ah ha enlightenment, moment and now I chop wood again and carry water until the next moment. It is a constant unfolding of my being. I realize today it can never be a destination because that would imply an ending and I AM infinite so I will always BE therefore Enlightened I AM moment by moment, in my being, in my inaction and essence of who and Who’s I AM I AM Arrived.

Today I’m chopping wood and carrying water the way my Ancestor did. I sing with the joy of being alive. I sing with a message to let the others know which way the road is clear to freedom. I sing to remind myself that working in the field of my consciousness is my only way. I sign to let others know I  AM coming, I AM becoming, I AM. I sing to remind myself of my home land in the Grace of God. I sing to remember my way. I sing to call to others to get on board. I sing to let others know I need you.  This journey of a thousand miles of enlightened moments has begun with the first step….. BEING!

I AM WHOLE

Yesterday I had to be reminded by a woman I consider powerful and dynamic that what she saw in me is the same. I had to be reminded of my power, and value and worth. I had been having a bad “day”. The other day I have found out something about myself that I am in complete judgment about. I told her that “I am f**ked up”. What she said to me was that “I am not f**ked up. I have f**ked up days.”

Those words were exactly what I needed to hear. I have been going around making my whole life to be f**ked up when this was just a moment in my whole life. I realize I have done this often and Iyanla say’s if you do it anywhere you do it everywhere. I have often made everything bad when one “bad” thing happens as well as everything good when one “good” thing happens. I am especially prone to this particular style of thinking, the creating a duality, the either or complex, because I am a Gemini and we are the twins. My whole life I have been able to see both sides to every situation. Needless to say it has caused me great challenges in making decisions.  I see now that I have been living an either or life when truly there is room for both. I see now how creating an either or vision of the world has caused me great pain. I have taken a wonderful gift and used it against myself. I have sinned. The gift of duality is the gift of polarity and in the understanding and accepting both as one I find my balance I have been searching for. I think about the “coin”. It has two sides. Neither side is better than the other yet when you look at it for what it is, it doesn’t matter which side is up it’s still a coin. The coin is also likened to our life and how we spend it will depend on its value and worth. We are the only ones who can determine that. All of this is a lesson to accept myself exactly as I am in any moment. Not suspending judgment, giving it up all together; laying down my sword and shield and finding my innocence right where I am and in that moment recognizing that “In my defenselessness my safety lies”. (ACIM Lesson 153)

So I ask you too to look at how you judge yourself and in finding judgment you break off a piece of your own self-worth and diminish your value? How, in accepting yourself, the good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful you can you have a richer more fulfilling life? How does, how you show up for yourself accepting you exactly the way you are open the door to accepting others exactly as they are?  What are the possibilities of laying down the sword of judgment and the shield of defensiveness? Perhaps this is the weapon of mass destruction we should all be looking for. This weapon is the destructiveness that keeps brother pitted against brother and sister against sister. It is the weapon that makes war and destroys the value of the being which causes the rotting stench of doubt and insecurity to rise like gangrene in the spirit and pollutes the love that is already there. STOP the violence of self-hate in any form and let love be the healing salve that mends the hearts back to its original form, whole.

 

Prayer:

My Great God Presence above and within me, My Beloved I AM presence

I acknowledge that right where I am you are and where you are all is well.

I acknowledge that in me exist a duality of the Divine feminine and Divine Masculine.

I acknowledge in me there is a duality of that which I find acceptable and that which I judge as not

I admit that this vision is a construct of my humanity and that in my divine state I see its wholeness. Today I accept my whole being and fill the holes with unconditional love and self-acceptance. Today I accept that when I separate myself from you I am frightened and I can only see my fear. Today I accept that as I cleave to your bosom I find the nourishment and comfort to be able to see through the duality into the truth… I AM Whole prefect and complete in every aspect of my being.

I release the need to separate myself from you and I become fused in me as I AM one with all…. The Creator and the created.

 

In this moment I give thanks and surrender the process of this continued unfolding to you. Amen and Ashe’