The Spirit of Shame

There was a time when I was a child when I was shamed for my actions. I am sure all of us have experienced it at some time or another in our life. Shame is supposed to provoke one to have remorse for ones actions. I believe that remorse can never really be felt by someone through the feeling of shame because when we are shamed we are made to feel bad about our-self and our actions. When we feel bad about our-self we cannot feel our worth or worthy. We feel worthless. Worthlessness cannot produce remorse. 

Remorse comes through the feeling of worthiness. When we feel worthy we can feel remorseful because it is then we can see our actions are out of alignment with our charter, “Our True Character.” 

Shaming comes from fear, or at least it did in the most significant incident that impacted my life when I was a child. When we shame out of fear its imprint is compounded. Both shame and fear carry an energy which is vampiric in nature. They are like spirits who need to be fed to stay alive so when they imprint and attach they continue to feed on experiences growing stronger until it becomes second nature. Second nature is not real nature. Second nature is another life form living  on and through you. Our first nature is freedom, joy, happiness and most of all innocence. 

Anything that needs you to exist is not a living thing. It is a ghost, a vampire, an “unalive” (I prefer that then undead). Today is halloween. The veil between the worlds is thin. It is this opening and portal between the worlds that has been set for this most auspicious moment of the Blue Moon and Halloween. Today send the spirit of shame back into the nothingness from which it was formed. Today release shame and fear and any other “unalive” spirits that are a hindrance in your life. 

If you are reading this perhaps this message is for you or someone you know. Share it with love to support the lifting of the unnecessary burdens in someones life. This is a Treat to remove the trick  that was once played when we chose to believe in the “unalive” spirit called shame.

A Prayer for you

I am the presence of Freedom. I am the gift of life. I release all attachments that seek to hinder my lite. I release the spirit of shame back from whence it came. No longer able to hold onto me, I am free to embrace worthiness and all I came here to be. I celebrate worthiness as me and my life from this day on I am happy and free. 

On this day So Mote it BE.

Women Healing Zone ©2020

~It's time to Salute the Sun~

Join me for a Soul Awakening Solstice Celebration Saturday at 4:45 am -5:45 am for 108 Sun Salutations as we welcome in the Sun's radiance back into ourselves and our life!

Addressing the current state of affairs

I keep trying to address this in a way that makes sense of the situation. I keep trying to address it from a spiritual and human perspective and I, at the moment, am simply at a loss for words. I know that I am the creator of my reality and my consciousness effects the reality of the world I live in. I also know that I am a part of the collective consciousness and my consciousness effects the collective. sooooo now the words flow…

The work we do must be two fold. There is inner work to do and outside work to do. We must address the thoughts we hold, the feeling that are created from those thoughts and the actions we take as a result of those thoughts. When we cannot see the thoughts clearly, like the unconscious beliefs that run silently in the background of our mind creating behaviors that are unhealthy, we must look at our life and ask how is what we are experience being created and what we are consciously or unconsciously doing to create, support or permit this. Lastly we must “GET WOKE” and not just get there but “STAY WOKE.” When we wake up, we awaken to our nature. We awaken to that fact that we have feelings but we are not our feelings. We awaken to that Truth, that we are love. We awaken to the nature that we are connected to each other in a spiritual, physical and emotional way.

Every time we harm another we harm ourself. These harms happen with our thoughts, our actions and spiritually through shutting others out of our heart, We must look to those who have gone before us and made peaceful changes. We must take a deep dive into the practices of Dr. Martin Luther King, Mahatma Gandhi, Nelson Mandela and the leaders who strive to put Spirit into practice. To address the Spiritual maladies in a physical way such that real and long lasting healing happens.

This war that is going on is a spiritual war. We have been sickened in our Spirit. Our Spirit has been separated from its Truth. We have forgotten that it is the Spirit that is carried on the breath within us and that that breath is that which we all share and when I take your breath away, I cannot breathe.

Ask and it is given.

Sometimes the Universe delivers what feels like a harsh reality to us in the form of a cold bucket of water splashed on the body already freezing with too much feeling,  too deep a grief, and walking in the flood of denial. 

  I asked for a sign, and there it was. 

I said I wanted three signs that something in my life was over and this picture popped up. I said ok I want two more signs and as I asked, my friend liked my comment on IG and said yes to the question of “could I use it,”  producing the same picture two more times. This means for me that this is a HUGE energetic shift and a karmic release of which I am truly thankful. 

 All this to say that the time of deep healing is upon us. Full Moon in Scorpio, the sign of the zodiac that is represented by true depth of emotional healing is here. The ability to go so deep that you come out the other side. All I can say is thank God. Thank you Divine Source that my time for healing has come and the depths of which I am to heal is deeper than I could have thought to do alone. You are with me. Thy Rod, which holds the energy to direct my prayers into fruition, thy Staff which I lean upon to hold me up through the many ways I have faltered, that comforts me to remember I am not alone. 

This time of Emotional Healing right now is as wide and deep and expansive as the ocean. The Mother of all life, the waters of which we could not live without. The Supreme Mother some call Yemmeya, represented by all mothers. As Mothers day approaches, on the heels of this Super Full Moon, let us heal the mother wound which heals the Earth and the fullness there of, which is you, me and the world. 

We are the fullness of the Earth. We are her inhabitants. We are what is healing. We are the connection we desire, we are the love we have been seeking, we are Now in our Holy’ness, as the return of the Christ, the consciousness of TRUTH is realized in every one. 

So as this thing called covid 19 continues to cause havoc in our lives whether directly or indirectly, let us do the internal work to self-quarantine; to isolate those thoughts, beliefs and behaviors that no longer serve us and heal on the deepest level possible so that we are ready, willing and able to sustain ourselves on the new earth were a deeper connection to the whole will be experienced, where the intention will be felt without need to be expressed, where the need to speak will be less because we will “feel”each other and that feeling will be what guides us into the next moment, and the next. This healing is the purification of the emotional, mental and physical bodies so the the Spiritual Body can take its rightful place in man, at the center of the heart and the center of the head. This connection is the illumination of our Spiritual Light bodies as we become the Light-House of love. Let what needs to die within us die so we can be Spiritually Reborn. 

Affirmation:

In me is all that I need to weather the storm, to walk through the fire and be Reborn.

When breaking up becomes a break through.

I have been through several relationships in my many years on the planet. None of them resulted in children. I was in discussion with a close friend who said that her child was the byproduct of her relationship with this amazing man and that the child was the very best parts of him and her. It was that soul born form the two that allowed her to see the very best in him despite the differences. It helped her dig deep into her own being and recognize her power, strength and the gift that she was to the relationship.

For those of us who don’t have children with our partners, our persons or our great loves, when we break up, how do we do that? How do we make the relationship greater than the sum of its parts? 

When we leave, and the pain is great, that pain can become our own birthing process. We are giving birth to our new self. This self, like the child, has  great potential to grow and become a game changer in the society of our own life. We get to allow that relationship, no matter how long or how short to grow us into a more whole, more loving, caring and compassionate individual. It’s our choice. We can become bitter, fearful and angry, thereby throwing the baby out with the bath water or we can nurture and feed the growing sense of Self that emerges on the other side of that experience.

Who we are is far greater than the pain, greater than the dissolution of the two that is now just one. We ARE the love we felt, when we opened our hearts for that love. When we keep our hearts open we open up to loving ourselves more. Loving our very fragile existence in this great cosmos, and truly let love bloom such that all who drink of our nectar will be enriched because of it. Our essence then becomes like honey, sweeting all life we come in contact with. Let that honey permeate our existence so that all who taste fall in love with that which they are, and that which you are, at the core of your being. Throw the bath water out, the drama, confusion, anger, judgment, self and otherwise and keep the baby for yourSelf. 

I know it's a weird picture, I created it because I like it!
Use your imagination to visualize what works for you !

Affirmation: Everyone I am in relationship with and too strengthens and empowers me to experience and express more GoOD in my life in every aspect. I celebrate connections.

Another Ah Ha Moment

This morning while I was cleaning out my car I found a phone holder to assist in making videos. As I headed to the trash to throw it out I looked at it and had the thought, “Maybe I could just buy the piece that’s broken?” It was in that moment that I had an awareness. It is often in the most mundane circumstances that the awakenings occur. This is why awakening is a journey and not a destination. Awakening is done in the realm of the physical, in the human ordinary everyday experiences of daily life. If we seem to only become enlightened in our spiritual endeavors, only when we have lit the incense and when the crystal bowls chime, we miss the ability to be truly awake, alive and divine. 

So back to my awakened moment. I realized that I try to save things, way past their expiration date. I try to fix what’s sometimes broken beyond repair and often I try to repurpose what is useless. Initially I thought this was a good idea. What’s the old saying, “Waste not want not”?And yet this “not wasting” was clogging up my life and stifling the flow of abundance, creativity and freedom and left me wanting financially, creatively and flexibly. This moment gave me life. It gave me breath and it gave me energy, strength and courage. One moment of awareness can do that. We don’t need hours upon hours of meditation and spiritual immersion, classes and abstinence. We need to be able to appropriately ingest and navigate what we do intake as awakenings and utilize it to its fullest. 

This moment of clarity has inspired me to release lots of things and I feel free. I feel expansive and I feel excited for the first time in weeks. I feel excited to let go and be free. This letting go is a daily process of eliminating thoughts, behaviors and beliefs that no longer serve me. So it really doesn’t matter where I learned it or how long I’ve been doing it. All that matters is that I utilize the awareness to create change today and what I choose today will take care of tomorrow.

So my friend, let me ask you, what is it that you can let go of? What is it you’ve been trying to fix, repurpose or have kept way past its expiration date? Is it a belief, a relationship, a job, a habit? Feel free to borrow this awareness as your own now that you are reading it and let yourself be free.

Affirmation:

Today I give myself permission to let go of what has been holding me back, what has weighed me down and what has clogged the channels of creativity, abundance and freedom. I release my hold on it because I no longer hold onto what isn’t working, hasn’t worked or what is outdated and obsolete. I step into an irrevocable freedom and I celebrate all the good that flows as a result of my conscious choice. Amen. 

Room for Improvement

All around us the death toll rings during Covid 19. We hear of hundreds a day as the apex of this experience begins to crest. As metaphysicians let us seek to actively participate in this process through utilizing this experience for more Spiritual growth and enlightenment so that we emerge from this more improved, more open and loving, more free to love, be loved and know our inherent value and worth unattached to the trappings of external validation or approval. Let us morn the loss of our loved ones and celebrate the death of things that are no longer working in our-lives that we see as we

are sheltered in place. Today let us awaken to the decision to die to the lies that we have told ourselves about ourself and that which we have consciously and unconsciously eaten from others. The spoons filled with insecurities, plates of not-enough-ness and jam jars of self deprecating thoughts and behaviors.

When I was younger I used to live by the motto; good, better, best, may you never let it rest until your good gets better and your better is best. For years I lived this motto and it was a successful motivator in my life. Today on my morning “W’OG”, walk/jog, I had an awakening. My Good is good enough. I am good enough and my best is always unfolding. There is no, good, to get better and no better to make best. Good is good, and it is enough. 

I had a moment of clarity to break it down. Language is so limiting and yet it is something we rely on to communicate. In our subconscious minds it does not make distinctions. It is a factory of acceptance, so to say better implies that there is something wrong with what you have. It says there is something lacking and when we, you, I or anyone creates, thinks or makes something that is good then it is good, period. What is good can be improved upon and that means we take something that is working and make it improved in efficiency, or color, or application. We can improve upon something but if we make something better then invariably we see it as something that has something wrong with it. Can you follow this line of thinking? It is making sense to you?

So all the years I said I wanted to be better, it was in essence saying I was “bad,” unworthy, useless, not enough. Today I realize the absurdity of this and I am able to accept my inherent worth. I can say and mean it, I am good. I am enough. and I feed this to my subconscious mind which accepts this just as readily as she did it’s opposite. I can accept my good and know that what is good within me and about me can always be improved upon. That is evolution. I am in a constant state of evolving. The cycles of evolution, the stages of life can be seen all around us. The Good in us must increase because it is that which gives life. It must improve because it is that which evolves that creates more life. Life is that substance of God that lives in each of us that gives us life. 

You my dear, you and you and you, each of you are “gOod.” You are the evolution in action, love in motion, life unfolding, amazingly, brilliantly, you!